I’m a black woman. I’m married to a tall, urban black man who wears dreadlocs and was born and raised amongst the violence and crime of the South Philadelphia streets. According to society, by mere appearance, he meets the ‘stereotypical black-male-thug’ description that’s widely misunderstood today. We have two black sons (a third son due any day) who also wear dreadlocs that have little “street sense” and are as suburban as they come.
I also have an abandoned heart to Jesus Christ. I have pledged an allegiance to His kingdom as a citizen of heaven in a new nation a part of a new race. I have proudly committed my life to the Lord in ways I never knew He would call me to. I am eternally grateful to Him choosing to have His way through me and for His grace.
With the current race relation issues in the United States, my heart, thoughts, and spirit are unsettled and all over the place, figuratively. The core of my heart is for Christ, but I also have my human nature to work through with Him just as any other follower of Christ would.
I tarry between understanding that (1) I am not of this world and am called to keep my eyes on Christ for I am a part of a heavenly culture; and (2) that I am a black woman who lives with specific experiences due to my African American heritage and, literally speaking, I can’t just disregard the color of my skin. My Creator created me as He pleased.
My question is how do I move forward in genuinely and unbiasedly living by His life within and choosing His heart desires over my own while reconciling the reality of the specific circumstances He’s allowed me to be exposed to in the United States of America due to the color of my skin. Naturally, I am burdened on both ends of the spectrum and there is something tugging deep at me in my heart that believes there is a purpose in Christ in me sharing His indwelling Life as a woman of color with spiritual eyes to see the true reality.
Living as a black woman in evil times of our society regarding hate and race does not make me special. It is not about me or my family. The anxiety that rises within me when my husband is pulled over by the cops or if he’s been out at night longer than expected is submitted to Christ in my heart no more or less than the same anxiety or worry my loving sister-in-Christ has when her husband (my dear brother-in Christ) leaves for work everyday as a white police officer.
As much as I want to shout out the facts of what’s true of worldly corruption from my perspective is just as much as others want to shout out the facts from their perspective of the things happening in our society. As much as I naturally want respect and understanding of the nuances I face as a minority living in our society is just as much as the respect and understanding wanted by any other person who has been discriminated against or oppressed for any reason plausible under the sun. The experiential perspectives of human nature can go on and on without any solutions.
So what is the true reality?
As I lay my’self’ on the altar and submit my heart to Christ, the burden in my spirit is revealed. Jesus Christ is the true Lord of this earth. He will use ALL things to show His glory and our need for Him. “Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father” (Phillipians 2:9-11). The system of this world is in the hands of the enemy and will be destroyed because it’s foundation is not eternal. God only has one purpose–to build His Church, gather His people, have His Family, and present the Bride to the Bridegroom.
Each and every one of our unique experiences that result from our upbringing, race, human culture, etc. is intended to be used for the purpose of Jesus Christ having His way in the earth. The Lord is not divided–never has been and never will be. Good versus bad or even right versus wrong was never intended to be weighed in the hands of man. There is only Life versus death and only one mind and one spirit that holds that key—-the mind of God through the spirit of the Person of Jesus the Christ.
Church. Brothers and Sisters in Christ. We have access to the Lord’s mind. We have access to the Person of Jesus Christ. What is distracting us from living by His life and seeing His thoughts and heart’s desires through our experiences in this earth? What is distracting you? Take your hearts to the Lord. Let Him build His Church. Lay your’selves’ down. Get your mind out of the way. Humble yourselves. Commit your hearts, over and over and over to His will. This world has nothing to offer that will satisfy your spirit the way Jesus Christ desires to.
Unity is in Jesus Christ, but it starts first in the heart of the believer. Be prompted by Him and Him alone and let your walk be reflective of Light and Life. Let’s seek to see Christ in each other, not things. Let’s build each other up in Christ and walk alongside each other as we are each learning to live by His indwelling Life amidst the distractions of this world and the distractions of our flesh.
We are One in Christ Jesus.
From the heart of your loving sister,