This post is to follow up from my post last week about applying Carrie’s exercise. As it turned out, I didn’t apply it with money like I thought I would. Here is what happened…
I work the morning shift at Starbucks, which means I clock in at 4:30 am. Often, its a while before it gets really busy, and we have time to speak to customers. These two women came in, and I made their drinks, and they sat down to study. After dealing with some other customers, I asked them what they were studying, and one of them told me that they were both in school to become Physicians Assistants.
This was significant for me, because there was a season in my life (roughly 2009/2010) in which I wanted to become a PA and made efforts to enroll in a program. (I eventually decided to go for nursing instead.)
This got me thinking of the path that my life has taken (actually I can honestly say, the path He has brought me on), and realizing that, in theory, I could be a Physician’s Assistant right now and have a lot more worldly respect and comfort than I do now. In my mind, there is no regret about the choices I’ve made, but my emotions don’t always line up with my mind, and I got a little down about it. I don’t like being depressed, so I started to attempt to re-frame my thoughts and repeated to myself, “we don’t worry about prestige.”
The “we” being myself and the Godhead. I also thought of the Corinthians verses about human wisdom in foolishness to God and vice versa.
I did this many times during my shift that day. I really don’t know if it made a difference or not, but I found it humorous that it didn’t turn out the way I expected the exercise to go.